Not ready yet

Although I am doing shopping as needed and trying to solve any problems that arise, I am just not ready yet to talk to anyone. It will be a while. Ed and I were close but this last year brought us so much closer together. Our shared thoughts still run through my brain and the sharing is gone now. Just me to move forward without him. I want to do that the best way that I can. I want his grandsons to remember him for the marvelous person that he was. His daughters and I already do.  Having to talk on a personal level leaves me absolutely exhausted and unable to cope for a period of time. It will take me time.