Always nice to have accomplished another cleaning day although I still have the basement today but it is greatly simplified. Sort of like how life simplifies when one becomes closer to 80. When my brother just a little older than me was struggling and in one of his last emails to me he said probably I am not going to write many more emails. I just felt that he was saying goodbye with that email. He lived seven hours away and my husband was very unwell so I did what I saw someone do when I was a child and I closed up the wagons around us because what was ahead was I thought a long period of being with my children's father and my husband as he worked his way along this struggle (it ended earlier than we thought but he knew what was ahead as well). I think I have come to think that when people want to stop communicating they do. I am probably like that. When you are old it is better to keep the circle small and you do not over extend yourself. I am very ready for that state of mind although do still send my emails out to family when great discoveries are made or something comes up that perplexes me.
One of the last times I visited my grandfather as a child he explained to me that one of these days he would be gone to Heaven and I cried. But he said I should be happy for him because he would be with Bessie his wife and his parents and his siblings that had already passed and if he passed muster he would be with God (that was when he told me I was named after Bessie although I was given the full name of her mother Elizabeth whom my father remembered very well from his childhood). I was not quite eight years of age then. He said to be happy for him and so I wiped off the tears and we continued to converse as we always had; he told me stories about a country that I did not know but did finally visit and even walked the paths where he walked as a child. It was fun to do that and I shall be forever grateful to my cousin Ivan for making that possible. He too enjoyed the walk and I had no idea that two years later he would be gone.
Right now my priorities are these books to get them off my plate and so I return to that tomorrow working away until I have accomplished that and try not to intrude or get distracted by anything because in reality God is there behind the veil waiting for us. So today is the basement and perhaps a little work on the books. I have not yet started to proofread the revision that I published. As I notice something I change it and that works. Then when the time comes I will read through it once again and then replace the copy online for downloading and I only submitted to a couple of repositories and I will ask to replace that copy if it is possible. I have no idea. At nearly 80 I will do my best to make sure the copies that are there are replaced with the corrected version. I shall apologize profusely but this is a limited book that just a few people really when you consider the population of the world are going to look at. I found mistakes in James Sanders book and fixed them so I feel satisfied that at least in this modern era one can correct after publishing if permitted.
So forward and ahead to the day. Breakfast and then set the robot to work followed by Latin and the day and the week carries forward. Today is a warming trend and there is to be rain.
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